Grieve, mourning and weeping…..

God bless you,

It has been a while since I blogged with regularity, but as you may know my mother was battling cancer and last week the Lord called her to be home with Him. You may be wondering how am I doing well the only thing that I can say right now is; “I’m doing my best to make things work even thou the circumstances and as you also know the strength of the Lord is my joy. You see Nehemiah said in Chapter 8 verse 9b-11 

“This day is holy to the Lord your God. Do not mourn or weep.” For all the people had been weeping as they listened to the words of the Law.10 Nehemiah said, “Go and enjoy choice food and sweet drinks, and send some to those who have nothing prepared. This day is holy to our Lord. Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength.” 11 The Levites calmed all the people, saying, “Be still, for this is a holy day. Do not grieve.”

Grieve is a feeling of a great amount of sorrow at the same time. For some it takes longer to accept – adjust – and to let go. You see it is good to feel the pain and mourn someone, but you have to realise also that you cannot live in pain for the rest of your life and bitter. A part of processing is to recognise and know that the place your loved one is in, their will be no pain (this is if the person lived a good christian life and accepted Jesus as his Saviour and when the person asked for forgiveness for all that has been done that doesn’t please God), then there is hope that we all will be reunited when Jesus comes back. (1 Thessalonians 4:13-18)


If you take a look at king David he did some things that didn’t please God like when he took the wife of Uriah, Bathsheba. (2 Samuel 11 + 12) Bathsheba became pregnant and David had to cover up some thing so he set Uriah up to fight in a position where he would be killed instantly. After the time of mourning past (which wasn’t long thereafter) he took Bathsheba as his wife and she bore him a son. God spared David but didn’t spare his son so illness came  upon the son of David and he past away. Now this is David his reaction in verse 18-22 of chapter 12 “18 On the seventh day the child died. David’s attendants were afraid to tell him that the child was dead, for they thought, “While the child was still living, he wouldn’t listen to us when we spoke to him. How can we now tell him the child is dead? He may do something desperate.” 19 David noticed that his attendants were whispering among themselves, and he realised the child was dead. “Is the child dead?” he asked.“Yes,” they replied, “he is dead.” 20 Then David got up from the ground. After he had washed, put on lotions and changed his clothes, he went into the house of the Lord and worshiped. Then he went to his own house, and at his request they served him food, and he ate. 21 His attendants asked him, “Why are you acting this way? While the child was alive, you fasted and wept, but now that the child is dead, you get up and eat!” 22 He answered, “While the child was still alive, I fasted and wept. I thought, ‘Who knows? The Lord may be gracious to me and let the child live.’ 23 But now that he is dead, why should I go on fasting? Can I bring him back again? I will go to him, but he will not return to me.”

Even in this time of great loss David got up and he went to the house of the Lord and worshipped. Sometimes we mourn longer than is needed. (no one can condemn you of how long you have to grieve as long as you know that there is hope in Jesus and that making a decision to move on has to be yours to made. This mean accepting the fact that your loved one won’t be coming back right now and that God never intended for you to be pained by losses but it is necessary.)  We want the pain to be a reminder of who your loved one was. This is not necessary while you can have great memories that will fill you with hope and let the love keep on growing even if the person isn’t physically present. Jesus was pained when He heard that Lazarus had past away. He cried over it and moved on. His next step than was to resurrect Lazarus so He did.

God is the author of life, sometimes you don’t get a answer of why that person had to die, but know that when they die in the Lord there will be a festive engagement in heaven. Celebrate their soul in heaven. I know it is hard I have my days, sometimes mood changing but when I think about God his greatness and love and peace I know that beside God and in His presence is where I want to be. He will heal those of broken heart
Psalm 34:18

18 The Lord is close to the brokenhearted
    and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Matthew 5:4 says “Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.” God will take care of you let Him in and work His ways. Remember everything He does He knows why. Every stage you go through there will be changes and sometimes it requires us to step out of our comfort zone and depend completely upon God. New directions, new things.

Be blessed. You may not agree right now but this is how God work. He is not to blame. This is the truth. Job lost everything but still his hope clinked in God.

With loving regards.




I’m struggling

God bless you,

Today I want to talk to you about the struggles of life. Every struggle has a name, maybe your struggling with pain, depression, loss, guilt whatever it is your struggling with. It is a good thing you are still struggling/fighting and pressing forward. You may think why did she just said that it is good to struggle; well let me just say the struggle you are in today will develop the strength you’ll need tomorrow. The true meaning of struggling is to make a forceful or violent effort to get free of restraint or resist attack. In my opinion this mean that you are willing to break free from whatever is holding you back and to make progress.

Let me tell you a little testimony:

I’m a only child, grew up with my mom but we didn’t always get along with each others opinions. You could say I was a little rebels and wanted to do things always my way, so I did. So far I have a good life and got always what I wanted and what I needed. Though I was in my rebellious stage at some point I found out last year that I was not only living for God but also to the opinion what My mom wanted me to become. I was trying to live up to her opinion something that had a hold on me. Last year in October my mom was diagnosed with cancer. It is spreading fast. Right now I have the chance to put everything God thought me to practice and also He is giving me the chance and strength to take care of my Mom. My family and I decided to move in with her and take care of her as long as needed. It feels good to have a bond and take care of her. But while I’m doing this my mind is spinning and I’m thinking the church is like a hospital where sick people come to get healing, restoration, a new chance and to be taken care of.. So even now that I’m in a pretty rough time God is still prepping for the greater. Actually two days ago I got a call of one of the leaders, deacons of my church asking me, that if in case she has to leave that I’d be willing to lead the dance group. My response was yes, whatever God says I should do I’ll do if it is ok with the Pastor of the congregation I’ll do it. (I’m still waiting on the answer of this maybe task and role I’ve to fill….But beside that this is whats happening right now so that is why you’ll experience a little absence on the blog, but I will make sure to post something that will help you in your situation as well)

When you are struggling doesn’t mean you are failing. Every great succes requires some level of struggle to get there. You were given this life because you are strong enough to live it!

romans 5;3-5

Even if your hurting and going to trial, there is always something to learn. I’m still learning. Even tho I have pain in my heart, I’ll cling to hope that whatever God has coming it will be for the Greater. It will be to give Him glory with. It will be to exalt His name and testify to the world of His greatness. Something else I learned is that when you have the feeling that you need someone the most, it is not them you need but it is God. When you think you need someone the most, they are not available you’ll get disappointed but it is just God telling you that you’ll need people but when you need someone the most is because you need God Himself.

For this is what the bible says in Romans 5:3-5
Not only so, but we[a] also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.

I love you God, through it all I will bless your name. You are the author of life. And I know for sure that every plan you have for me is not to harm me. So whatever it is I’ll follow.. Thank you for the Holy Spirit, You left be behind to serve as our comforter.

Be blessed.

With loving regards,


2015 New beginnings for greater things…

God bless you,

Today I want to boost you with Jeremiah 29:11 but before I do that I want to explain to you what beginning stands for. If you take the word beginning (Genesis) and define it you will come to the conclusion that it means the point in time or space at which something starts or the point at which someone comes to life.

Now the good thing is that before you came to life God knew you, before He formed you He set you apart for the greater(Jeremiah 1:5). And then He tells you that He has a plan to prosper you not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11). Well it is a good thing that He is a man of His word and that He will make sure to fulfil all His promises made to you. Because the Bible says that He is no man that should lie (Numbers 23:19) and the scripture also says in Matthew 24:35 “Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away.” So this is your assurance for this year that God’s word will stand and prevail till the end.

Jer 29;11

So this is a New year to live and to see God’s promises come to life in your live. As you’re walking towards or into your destiny God will set you up for greater things. Even if you don’t see it right now He will do it. You see when you have faith you will not walk by sight. Trust Gods in all your ways and you will see that He is up to do greater things in your life.

2015 is the year for greater things if you let God have His way.

Be blessed.

With loving regards,