You’re not made bulletproof!


Hey there, Gods blessings be upon you, in your house or wherever you may encounter yourself at in this moment. Today I’m going to share about the fact that we think as humans that showing our feelings is a sign of weakness and that this is a reason why we hide from them. We create bubbles to put things in , to hide stuff, to hide the feelings. Bubbles are fragile and are not meant as a place of concealment.

I’m going to zoom in just a little on Naomi a character from the book of Ruth, first chapter. Many times you go through stuff that has an impact on your life. You trust nobody to tell them that your in pain, that your suffering. You go through loss without the ability to let go and move on. Instead you build walls to keep everybody out. These walls don’t keep only people out but your blessings as well. We have the tendency to think that being vulnerable is a sign of weakness so we prefer to think that we are bulletproof made. You may have thoughts as “it is not affecting me”, when people ask how you are doing you may answer “I’m fine, blessed, I’m working it out”..(trust me I’ve been here, I’ve done this countless of time) But the truth to the matter is you are spiraling down. There is only so much you can take!

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Naomi was bitter, left alone, lost hope, maybe even angry. Common reaction to these feeling is to send everybody away. This is what Naomi is going to do. (Ruth 1:8-13)  So she is left behind with her two daugthers-in-law and she is deciding to move to her hometown. So she set out with them on the road that would take them back to Judah. (Ruth 1:6-7) In the text you can read that Orpah went back but as for Ruth she clung to Naomi. This is a blessing, but she to focussed on her own feelings she couldn’t see this just yet.(Ruth 1:14-18) Now when they arrived in Bethlehem, they whole town stirred at them, and exclaim can this be Naomi? Now she is confronted with her. when she left, she left with her family now she is back empty handed, no family only Ruth! She than replied don’t call me that, call me Mara because the Almighty has made my life very bitter. Now she is having the real break down she is exposed to her real feelings (Ruth 1: 20-22)

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Sometimes as a great person/leader you think that you can’t show flaws or weaknesses. You think your bulletproof but this will backfire at you cause people can’t relate anymore to you cause you are so perfect. One the most powerful aspects of Jesus is that He could identify with our struggles. In order for God to turn your wailing into dancing you must trust Him enough to give it to Him. You need to be real.

The longer you are in a bubble the longer it takes to heal. Bringing down the walls you’ve created so that people can’t hurt you anymore, gives God the chance to bless you and change your circumstance. God will not force enter your life. You have to be willing to experience the change. To go through the process of healing. Healing hurts, it exposes you to all you’ve been hiding from!

You may have done something that causes you to feel shame, the feeling that you want to hide from others grow bigger, you can’t let yourself to be seen causes they will meet that the perfect pre-tendency is all a mask. It may be sin that causes you to experience that God will no longer love you. This is not true, this is a lie of the devil to keep you from developing and growing out and to receive God’s blessings for your life.

Be vulnerable enough that even after you got hurt you have the strength an courage to start over and move on. Don’t allow yourself to be stuck and to fall. Don’t be spiraling down in life but be bold enough to grow and break free from the pain. Trust the correct people whom can relate and identify with you to help you through the process.

I hope this helps you and that soon enough you can experience the warmth of Jesus Christ and realise that even when you failed you are not a failure and can be a blessing to others. You’ve been waiting for God to bless you, you are the blessing.. You a re a working progress.

Be blessed. From my heart to yours.

Shaina Domitilia-Margaritha

 

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The Lord remembers you


Hey there, Gods blessing be upon you. Today I just want to share  the thought that even when people try to make you feel bad about a situation/decision, they are actually helping you get stronger and to reach higher. You need the envious people in life, they serve as a push to get you where God wants you to be. They help maximize your potentials, to reach higher and to dig deeper.

You may ask; why are people envious? You may even think “I don’t have nothing they may already have!” But again this is a lie. You have the love of God and is grace that is sufficient for you. This causes people to see you as a thread. The scripture for today is based on Peninnah and Hannah, the two wives of Elkanah (1 Samuel 1) The second scripture is Psalms 126 5-6.

Today I’m not focussing on Samuel but on the rival that is going on between these two woman. You see in text you can read that Peninnah was to one able to give Elkanah sons and daughters. Hannah on the other hand her womb was closed by the Lord. She couldn’t have childeren, she was infertile. But because of this Elkanah knew this and loved Hannah very much he would give Hannah a double portion. (1 Samuel 1:5).

Now this is something that intimidated Peninnah, she knew and saw how Elkanah cared for  Hannah, how he loved her. And the fact that se couldn’t have childeren and that her womb was closed was a strong arrow to use against Hannah, to try to breakin’ her down. So Peninnah starts reviling  Hannah and this goes one for years. She provoked Hannah in order to irritate her. You see know a days people will get in fights. They get jealous of what others have that they don’t but Hannah had a lot amount of courage, class, integrity and dignity. This caused her pain, but the pain caused her to weep in-front of the Lord. People now a days will rival on social media, they even use songs to get back at each other. What Hannah teaches is to not lower your standards, it’s not worthy and doesn’t accomplish anything. Even though it hurt. (1 Samuel 1: 7-8)

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Hannah was fasting and praying even though in the text saids that she wouldn’t eat. After the meal she stood up and went to the Lord’s house. After all these years I understand she had enough, I can understand her tears, she was tired of being provoked. Hannah was in her deep anguish, Hannah prayed, Hannah wept bitterly (heartbroken and downhearted), Hannah was in misery but then Hannah makes a vow. (1 Samuel 9-11) “If you consider me a son I will give him back to you all the days of His life, and no razor will be used on his head”. And Hannah kept on praying she was even misunderstood by Eli he thought she was drunk cause she was praying in her heart and her lips were moving without any voice coming out her mouth. (1 Samuel 1:12-16)

You see many times we vow before the Lord and then when we get what we wanted and then we forget the promise we made God and then you find out that it no longer the way planned. Example you ask God for a child, you get the child but you forget you promised God that  you will give him back and this child causes you pain, he his wandering the world, hanging out with bad crowds..

You ask God for a job and promise to give back what you earn. But then when you have the job you forget the promise and just to find out that your short on money, you can’t even remember where and when you spend the money. Maybe it is not going that well at the job anymore and you decide to leave or you’ve been fired, left without a source of income..

The blessing is complete and you may find joy in it when you stand on your promise. Let your yes, be yes…

See Hannah had heart for God even though she was not pregnant yet.. she still worshiped before the Lord. Then the went back to their home at Ramah and Elkanah made love to his wife Hannah and The Lord Remembered Her. In the course of time she became pregnant and gave birth to a son and calls him Samuel, saying, “Because I asked the Lord for him”. (1 Samuel 17 – 19) The Lord remembered her. The Lord blessed her with a child. The Lord can open your womb for new talents that helps you towards your destiny, He’s able to impregnate you with purpose.

Psalms 126: 5-6

Those who sow with tears
    will reap with songs of joy.
Those who go out weeping,
    carrying seed to sow,
will return with songs of joy,
    carrying sheaves with them

Hannah was a woman of her word, so she kept her word and dedicates Samuel to the Lord (1 Samuel 21- 28) whom God will use later on for great things. (following chapters)

Even when people cause you pain, they are helping you get where you need to be. God his purpose his being put inside of you. Every pain you feel and every tear you dropped before God, He will remember them all. What He has in store for you that love Him nobody can comprehend.

Be blessed.

Shaina Domitilia-Margaritha

 

Rebuilding is a process


 

Hey there today I’m writing you from the thought that sometimes we find ourself connected the wrong people and in that moment you don’t see what the damage is. The text is based on Nehemiah 2 en 1 Peter 5:8

There need to be breakage before healing. Nothing is rebuild overnight. When God leaves you in the fire is because that’s the only way you can see God. When you can shout in the furnace you can shout when you get out. God provides revelation in the situation. Maybe the prayer your praying doesn’t need to be change my situation but give me revelation.

The most vulnerable time in ones life is when you are tired and gave everything away. the devil has time to wait on a opportunity to sneak in and if you are off guard it will bring you down. Small gesture can bring down great people. When you are tired everybody that pretend to listen will do. everybody that says anything nice to you, you will be attracted to. Bad company corrupts good character. Bad company on a long term will affect your health, your finance and your strength. It will cause you to feel as if you are in the lowest moment of your life.)non deserving of God’s love, this is a lie of the devil)  It’s the feeling like hanging on a cord without getting any air, it is the feeling of being scared that the cord will break and cause a separation between you and God.That is why we need to be alert and of sober mind. cause the enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 1 Peter 5:8.

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Sometimes the things that seems to be of no harm will be harmful.  Sometimes we overestimate or strength just to find out that the place we are in we are selling ourself short. We need to back off and seek God.

As a person that has the calling of leadership on your life and you are functioning as leader you can not let everybody in your space. Some people will take from you without putting it back.(strength, energy , ideas…) They suck the energy out of you. they bring you down for Satan’s pleasure. Satan uses people to get what he wants. He will laugh at you in your down moment. When he thinks you don’t have the strength to get up he will find peace. But as soon as you plan to start rebuilding all hell is going to break loose. He will use strategies to bring you down. (he will ridicule you, intimidate you, scare you.. but satan’s plans are not unknown for those who pray and seek God)

  1. A leader must spend a lot of time alone. (Neh. 2:11) Sometimes you have to go apart before you fall apart. You have to unload before you overload. When you are alone you can hear from God. In your solitude you can get a plan and power.
  2. A leader takes the time to gather the necessary information/facts (Neh. 2:13). If you don’t have the facts you will make the wrong decision based only on your feelings.
  3. A leader understand the devil plan and the divine plan is based on details. If you are not a detail-oriented you will mess your life up. A leader pays attention to the details but is not bogged down in the details. You cannot rebuild while micromanaging everything and everybody.
  4. A leader understand that timing and words are important. (Neh. 2:16) Sharing information to soon gives people the time to come up with reasons why your idea won’t work. Be careful who you trust your good stuff too. Have a strategy. The devil sure as hell will have one.
  5. A leader must always focus on the big picture. 2:15
  6. A good leader knows how to motivate people
  7. A good leader knows when to confront the enemy.

Testimony:

While I was going through my now cancelled divorce procedure, I was down, this action of mine caused me a lot of stress I was loosing weight. It caused me my energy. In that time I connected with a person who I confided somethings cause my emotion were all over the place and you could read them of my face. Without noticing this person was trying to pretend to care by saying nice things like I understand, if you need to talk I’m here. Sooner than I expected I was constantly messaging on whats-app. Without knowing I was being carried away. I was feeling tired the whole time, couldn’t give anyone no motivational word, my problems were growing bigger. The demand and the feeling of obligation towards the wrong person began to grow. It was like this person couldn’t be missed in my life.. But the one Person I couldn’t be separated from was the love of God. So I decided that whatever that I can get from God I would take, if it is the same song I will praise Him with, if it is same sentence “Help me Lord” I would say. In my silence I would here Him over and over “Stop talking, Stop exposing yourself, don’t look back” Than one day when I had enough of fighting my own will vs. God’s will, after a service on sunday I messaged this person and I said you are withholding me from God, I choose no longer to give you my time. I’m choosing God over you. I have know broken that line of connection that was causing frequency damage. The truth to be told after this action I missed talking to this person it was as if this person has gotten under my skin. This person became to important in my life just to find out that I was blinded and of guard. Know that I’m aware of this I thank God that he brought me out of the mess I’ve created for myself. I’m free, not looking back. I’m going forward with Jesus in front of me behind me and next to me.

Be blessed,

Shaina Domitilia-Margaritha

He moves mountains!


Gods blessings be upon you. Good morning. Today I just hope to shine some of Jesus His  light in that ugly situation you may finding yourself in.

You see when you read the bible it says that He is the same yesterday, today and forever more. He is not changing; situations change, people change, the system may fail you but He will never change nor fail you. He is an everlasting God and if He is an everlasting God than I have an everlasting blessing, you have an everlasting blessing.

When I think back on all that He has done, all the miracles I received, all that I’ve been healed from, all that He has deliver me from, all that I been blessed with… I know that He can do the same for you. He did not do it only for me but He did it for all those characters you can read of in the bible. This is prove that if He did it for me and them, He surely can do it for you. Just believe that the Everlasting God is bigger, mightier and stronger. He can bring you out, He can deliver you, He is everything you need in the less expected time. He is never late, just when you think is not going to happen hold on to Him and you will see His glory.

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If you think the situation is big and there is not a solution for it so it will be. But if you think that God is bigger and you believe with all your mind, heart and strength without doubting his ability.. you will see that everything that seemed big is small.

With faith you can move mountains.

Bible verses that prove to you that He is the one that can do it for you and for me:

Isaiah 40:4 Every valley shall be raised up,
    every mountain and hill made low;
the rough ground shall become level,
    the rugged places a plain.

Job 9:4-5 His wisdom is profound, his power is vast.
    Who has resisted him and come out unscathed?
He moves mountains without their knowing it
    and overturns them in his anger.

Matthew 21:21 21 Jesus replied, “Truly I tell you, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and it will be done.

Isaiah 41:15 15 “See, I will make you into a threshing sledge,
    new and sharp, with many teeth.
You will thresh the mountains and crush them,
    and reduce the hills to chaff.

Ezekiel 38:20 20 The fish in the sea, the birds in the sky, the beasts of the field, every creature that moves along the ground, and all the people on the face of the earth will tremble at my presence. The mountains will be overturned, the cliffs will crumble and every wall will fall to the ground.

I hope you will be blessed. Change your perspective of seeing things. All you need is Him. What seems impossible for men is possible for God. Consult the Holy Spirit for wisdom through every situation you may be going through.

My praise: When I didn’t have the strength, the Holy Spirit was pleading for me and fighting for me. In my most peaceful and quiet place in my interior I was crying out for His help. It felt like I was not able to stand up back, but than He stepped in the most perfect time and change my tragedy into a teaching message. My sadness into joy. He turned it all around. So I believe with you today that God will do it for you.

Hold on and never let go. Be blessed. From my heart tot yours.

S. Domitilia-Margaritha

Running out of time!


Hey there, I greet you in the Mighty name of Jesus Christ. Today I just want lay my concerns before you.

In the past few weeks you here on the news that there is lot going on. People are dying all over the world, it may be cancer or another fatal disease, it may be by a gone shooting, it may be an attack on their nation, it be may anything, but in the end it is the same they are all death. Families and loved ones are left behind. Christians are being persecuted and executed by other believes. We ask ourself why this is happening, you may even encounter yourself in a time of despair. You lose all sense of hope and don’y know where to turn to.

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I’m taking my text from the book of Habakkuk (chapter 1-3). Habakkuk was a prophet and in the first chapter you can read  about Habakkuk’s first complaint and he cries out about the violence and the injustice happening. He said “Destruction and violence are before me; there is strife, and conflict abounds.” And Lord’s answer is in verse 5 of chapter 1 ““Look at the nations and watch— and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told.” (continue reading the rest the Lord has told him in chapter 1 verse 5-11

Than Habakkuk has a second complaint. He doesn’t understand how the everlasting God that will never die can permit the treacherous things that are happening in the world. (Habakkuk 1: 12-17) Than the Lord answered again and replied;

Then the Lord replied:

“Write down the revelation
    and make it plain on tablets
    so that a herald[b] may run with it.
For the revelation awaits an appointed time;
    it speaks of the end
    and will not prove false.
Though it linger, wait for it;
    it[c] will certainly come
    and will not delay.

(This chapter continues with the answer of the Lord (plse do read on

In the final chapter of Habakkuk he is telling God that he heard about God’s fame the wonders and deeds He only can do and He is praying for God’s mercy.

We may encounter storms, we may experience earth quakes, floods and death but God will fulfill His promises made to us. You must hold on to your faith in Him and keep his words in your heart. Blessed are the ones who lose their life for the cause of God because they will find it. (Matthew 5:10)

Here are some scriptures that will help: Stand fast, be firm and be on your guard.

Psalm 23:4Even though I walk through the darkest valley,[a]
I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

Matthew 24: 4-14 Jesus answered: “Watch out that no one deceives you. For many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I am the Messiah,’ and will deceive many. You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. All these are the beginning of birth pains.

“Then you will be handed over to be persecuted and put to death, and you will be hated by all nations because of me. 10 At that time many will turn away from the faith and will betray and hate each other, 11 and many false prophets will appear and deceive many people. 12 Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold, 13 but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved. 14 And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all nations, and then the end will come.

Luke 21:34-36 34 “Be careful, or your hearts will be weighed down with carousing, drunkenness and the anxieties of life, and that day will close on you suddenly like a trap. 35 For it will come on all those who live on the face of the whole earth. 36 Be always on the watch, and pray that you may be able to escape all that is about to happen, and that you may be able to stand before the Son of Man.”

1 Thessalonians 5:1-6 Now, brothers and sisters, about times and dates we do not need to write to you, for you know very well that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night. While people are saying, “Peace and safety,” destruction will come on them suddenly, as labor pains on a pregnant woman, and they will not escape.

But you, brothers and sisters, are not in darkness so that this day should surprise you like a thief. You are all children of the light and children of the day. We do not belong to the night or to the darkness. So then, let us not be like others, who are asleep, but let us be awake and sober.

2 Thessalonians 2 Whole chapter

Shalom, “peace to you, do not fear, you shall not die.” (Judges 6:23)

Be blessed,

S. Domitilia-Margaritha

Detours in life


Hey there, it’s been a long time now since I wrote you a motivational word. Today while I’m writing you this message you will find out what happened. Firstly I will be taking my text out of Genesis chapter 12 and 13 (you can read it later on). This story has a similarity and reflects back unto my own life. I will write you about this in the final part of this message. “Testimony”

 Here the bible is talking about the calling of Abram whom later on has a change of name and becomes Abraham whom is a friend of God (James 2:23). You see in chapter 12 God is commanding Abram to leave his country, people and from his father’s household. God is commanding him to go to a land that He will show Abram. So, Abram went, as the Lord told him, and took Lot (nephew) and his wife Sarai along with all their possessions they accumulated with him.

At some point in the scripture at verse 7 of chapter 12 he builds God a an altar. This altar was the place where came alone and meet up with God an talk to Him. The bible saids he called upon the name of the Lord.

Now here is where things go wrong. Cause he didn’t stay near the place he used to talk to God, he left and went down to Egypt without consulting God. God had commanded him to leave his land but never said anything about going to Egypt. Now as he was about to enter Egypt I know you are beautiful and if I tell them your my wife they will kill me and let you live, so tell them you are my sister! (liar and set his wife as bate to get a free passage, ugh really?)

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You after this stunt Abram pulled, now Sarai is been taken into the palace and Abram was treated well for het sake and gained more possessions.. But the LORD inflicted serious diseases on Pharaoh and his household. You see when you make a decisions you think it may only affect you but the reality and the truth to the matter is it will affect everybody that is connected to you. Because of this Pharaoh gave orders about Abram to his men, and they sent him on his way, with his wife and everything he had.

Continuing this story about Abram it was time to think back what and when it went wrong and had to go back and fix what needed to be fixed. Chapter 13 verse 1 Abram went up, he became a wealthy men in livestock and in silver and gold. Abram went back/ needed to go back to Bethel the place where he first built an altar for the Lord. There Abram called on the Lord. Skipping a part you can read in your own time to verse 14-18 Here you can read that God kept his promise to a showed Abram the land he had for him.

Testimony: You may ask why I took the time to write you about this or why this word reflects back on me. Well there is no easy way to say this but I filed for divorce a few months ago and just when the final decisions were made by the judge, I had a change of heart by God. (I’m ashamed for even considering this and going through with it until the last moment, after this God changed and restored everything, every mess I created.) You have to be willing to change, to change to way your thinking!

Going through a divorce is something awful and it costs a lot energy. My emotions were all over the place. I couldn’t be an encouragement to myself until I realised that it was not about me but about the plan of God in our life. My kids begun to act out and I couldn’t understand why. Everybody connected to us felt the pain. I thought; “it’s my life, nobody has anything to say about this matter cause it aint open for discussion. “

After a while it felt like I was hanging myself and that my life (spiritually) was depending on a cord I’m clinging to. Every feeling rushed back in. At moment I felled that it was wrong what I was doing. At the beginning I didn’t wanted to hear about it, I didn’t talk nor say anything to anyone and than my heart begun to harden because I didn’t want to hear from God. I encounter my detours in the decisions I made. My altar (the one in my heart) the most secret place where I meet God and talk to was longing for that encounter. My spirit was crying out help me Lord, bit by bit God was molding my heart again and restoring me.

I became sick and this lasted for about 10 months. I was suffering from bowel complaints and the doctors couldn’t find out what was wrong with me. After having undergone a lots of tests they said is was ACNES (Anterieur Cutaneous Nerve Entrapment Syndrome)

The doctors said I need to be injected into my nerves to see if the pain will go away or otherwise I would have surgery on my nerves. This can be very dangerous matter.

Now that my marriage is restored and we are going through emotional healing my physical health is been restored to. Thank you Jesus. You now sin when it is completed it will bring death forth but my God can turn everything around and I tell you I feel like dancing it is because my spirit is rejoicing, my inside is beginning to shake. When I think back that all that He has done for me, how he kept me… there is nothing more I can do than praise Him and give Him thanks.

I hope my story blesses you and that you may find your way back to your first love Jesus Christ.

Be blessed,

S. Domitilia-Margaritha

P.S. I’m telling you this so you may see that lift is not perfect everybody has his own story, makes their own mistakes and I sure do learn from them and share them with you so you may be blessed as I was.