Rebuilding is a process


Hey there today I’m writing you from the thought that sometimes we find ourself connected the wrong people and in that moment you don’t see what the damage is. The text is based on Nehemiah 2 en 1 Peter 5:8

There need to be breakage before healing. Nothing is rebuild overnight. When God leaves you in the fire is because that’s the only way you can see God. When you can shout in the furnace you can shout when you get out. God provides revelation in the situation. Maybe the prayer your praying doesn’t need to be change my situation but give me revelation.

The most vulnerable time in ones life is when you are tired and gave everything away. the devil has time to wait on a opportunity to sneak in and if you are off guard it will bring you down. Small gesture can bring down great people. When you are tired everybody that pretend to listen will do. everybody that says anything nice to you, you will be attracted to. Bad company corrupts good character. Bad company on a long term will affect your health, your finance and your strength. It will cause you to feel as if you are in the lowest moment of your life.)non deserving of God’s love, this is a lie of the devil)  It’s the feeling like hanging on a cord without getting any air, it is the feeling of being scared that the cord will break and cause a separation between you and God.That is why we need to be alert and of sober mind. cause the enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 1 Peter 5:8.


Sometimes the things that seems to be of no harm will be harmful.  Sometimes we overestimate or strength just to find out that the place we are in we are selling ourself short. We need to back off and seek God.

As a person that has the calling of leadership on your life and you are functioning as leader you can not let everybody in your space. Some people will take from you without putting it back.(strength, energy , ideas…) They suck the energy out of you. they bring you down for Satan’s pleasure. Satan uses people to get what he wants. He will laugh at you in your down moment. When he thinks you don’t have the strength to get up he will find peace. But as soon as you plan to start rebuilding all hell is going to break loose. He will use strategies to bring you down. (he will ridicule you, intimidate you, scare you.. but satan’s plans are not unknown for those who pray and seek God)

  1. A leader must spend a lot of time alone. (Neh. 2:11) Sometimes you have to go apart before you fall apart. You have to unload before you overload. When you are alone you can hear from God. In your solitude you can get a plan and power.
  2. A leader takes the time to gather the necessary information/facts (Neh. 2:13). If you don’t have the facts you will make the wrong decision based only on your feelings.
  3. A leader understand the devil plan and the divine plan is based on details. If you are not a detail-oriented you will mess your life up. A leader pays attention to the details but is not bogged down in the details. You cannot rebuild while micromanaging everything and everybody.
  4. A leader understand that timing and words are important. (Neh. 2:16) Sharing information to soon gives people the time to come up with reasons why your idea won’t work. Be careful who you trust your good stuff too. Have a strategy. The devil sure as hell will have one.
  5. A leader must always focus on the big picture. 2:15
  6. A good leader knows how to motivate people
  7. A good leader knows when to confront the enemy.


While I was going through my now cancelled divorce procedure, I was down, this action of mine caused me a lot of stress I was loosing weight. It caused me my energy. In that time I connected with a person who I confided somethings cause my emotion were all over the place and you could read them of my face. Without noticing this person was trying to pretend to care by saying nice things like I understand, if you need to talk I’m here. Sooner than I expected I was constantly messaging on whats-app. Without knowing I was being carried away. I was feeling tired the whole time, couldn’t give anyone no motivational word, my problems were growing bigger. The demand and the feeling of obligation towards the wrong person began to grow. It was like this person couldn’t be missed in my life.. But the one Person I couldn’t be separated from was the love of God. So I decided that whatever that I can get from God I would take, if it is the same song I will praise Him with, if it is same sentence “Help me Lord” I would say. In my silence I would here Him over and over “Stop talking, Stop exposing yourself, don’t look back” Than one day when I had enough of fighting my own will vs. God’s will, after a service on sunday I messaged this person and I said you are withholding me from God, I choose no longer to give you my time. I’m choosing God over you. I have know broken that line of connection that was causing frequency damage. The truth to be told after this action I missed talking to this person it was as if this person has gotten under my skin. This person became to important in my life just to find out that I was blinded and of guard. Know that I’m aware of this I thank God that he brought me out of the mess I’ve created for myself. I’m free, not looking back. I’m going forward with Jesus in front of me behind me and next to me.

Be blessed,

Shaina Domitilia-Margaritha


A reminder to me

Today I’m writing to myself..

Every book, article, paper or summary you read there is a introduction. This is mine. Just to be clear that I do not seek recognition in whatever my task for the Lord is, that it is not to gain power, to fit in or something like that. I’m writing this to remind me that in 2015 that this is who I am.

This is me; “I’m not going after power or recognition those who want the platform can take it! My mission is to follow Christ in obedience. Impersonating someone could be fun until you loose yourself in it and forget who you really are! This occasionally will bring collateral damage with it, because someone tried do something that wasn’t theirs to do.. I’m me and I’m real, there is no pretending to be anyone. I just wanna be me. My role model is Jesus… My Inspiration is the Holy Ghost. And my payment (price) will come from God.”


When you do something for God do it with a pure heart. Be contempt with who you are. God created me for who I am!

Yours faithfully,

S.Domitilia (Me)

In labor pain!

God bless you,

Today I want to take the comparison of the pain that a mother has to suffer before giving birth and likened it with the pain we have to suffer before giving birth to our purpose or to make our purpose come into his full fulfilment.

Bible says that God said to Jeremiah that before I formed they I knew ye. God knows you before you were born. God has planted the seed of purpose before you were born. God needs your life to fulfil the purpose He has planted in you.

Now a mother suffers a lot of pain; yes that is thru (Genesis 3:16), but for the baby it is painful as well. The baby has to go into position to be born, there has to be someone doctor or midwife that helps the mother through to process. The baby has to come out with his head and than they have to pull him a little at his head to help to process. Finally when he is out, they have to check and run test before he can lay warm on the mothers chest. The baby goes from one world to another. That is scary..

ezekiel 16;3-7

Sometimes we have to suffer pain; we have to go through painful stuff before we can realise that it is all to set and catapults us in our purpose. For me I can say I suffered a lot not sure actually if I won’t suffer anymore but I know that my pain will serve my purpose to bless another in order for God to be glorified.

Ezekiel 16:3-7 NIV

and say, ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says to Jerusalem: Your ancestry and birth were in the land of the Canaanites; your father was an Amorite and your mother a Hittite. On the day you were bornyour cord was not cut, nor were you washed with water to make you clean, nor were you rubbed with salt or wrapped in cloths. No one looked on you with pity or had compassion enough to do any of these things for you. Rather, you were thrown out into the open field, for on the day you were born you were despised.

“‘Then I passed by and saw you kicking about in your blood, and as you lay there in your blood I said to you, “Live!”[a] I made you grow like a plant of the field. You grew and developed and entered puberty. Your breasts had formed and your hair had grown, yet you were stark naked.


This morning God has seen you laying there in your own struggles and He says to you Live…Live (verse 6) God sees the potential in you.

Hope this is something to help you not to focus on the pain because bible says also in

John 16:21New International Version (NIV)

21 A woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a child is born into the world.

Be blessed.

With loving regards,


Love – Marriage day 5

God bless you,

Today is the last day of these series “Love – Marriage”. As married couple you united as two singles (complete and whole as individual people) and become one. How to make purpose work. Both of you have a calling. As we know God created Adam, he had the leading role. He had to name all the living and take care of the Eden. Now God find that it is no good that Adam will be alone so He created Eve.

So Adam has his own purpose when God created him. When God created Eve He had created Adam a helper. (Genesis 2:18)  So as woman not only we are under the care (submission) of the man but we have to help. (Colossians 3:18-19) When I say help I mean, when he needs you to do something for him naturally (household, fulfil his desires or active in the ministry) and in the spiritually (prayer, encourage…) you have to do so.

My husband is called to be a Pastor but is currently active in ministering with the Praise and worship team. He is a musician (pianist). So I have to cover him constantly with prayer, because the attacks will come. When he has to perform/minister somewhere I have to be alert that he is being exposed and that all kind of people can approach him for all kind of personal reasons and not all those reasons are Godly intended. So he needs prayer constantly. As musician you need a righthand or someone that does take care of the sound. He needs me so he is learning me to do the sound. I’m doing sound because it is my thing but he needs me at it, so I’m willing to learn that.

Before every writing and after every writing for these series of “Love – Marriage” I consulted him, because I’m aware that I’m exposing us. So I don’t do anything without consulting he has to know and approve of the situation.

Romans 12:1-2 tells us that we have to be transformed in our thinking. As pagans we think I don’t need permission for doing anything. I will do as it pleases my own desires. Example look at Eve. 1 Timothy 2:14 it says “14 And Adam was not the one deceived; it was the woman who was deceived and became a sinner”

As wife you have to respect your husband. So if he is the man of the house and the wife is submitted than respect has to follow otherwise you cannot speak of submission and honouring him in the position God put him. (Ephesians 5:31-33)

Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves. (Romans 12:10)
As wife honor your husband so he feels that he is respected.

I know these writing are mostly dedicated to the woman, but as woman we are stubborn. Sometimes we think why should I, but this is the will of God. I didn’t say loose your voice, communication is a priority.

Love day 5


Remember: “12 I do not permit a woman to teach or to assume authority over a man;[b] she must be quiet.” 1 Timothy 2:12

Be blessed. It’s my prayer that God will bring the two of you closer to each other. That their will be communication and understanding. That your thinking will be transformed and be the helper God created you to be.

With loving regards,


PS: It was an honor for me to do this. God trusted me with something big and I’m glad to have answer to His call.

If you have any petition (request) for some other topic of series comment and let me know I’ll be working on it. 😉

I can’t keep up..

God bless you,

Today I am just making sure that we are on the same page. I’m not trying to keep up with nobody. I’m just being me. I will not outrun myself by being you. I will not kill myself to have what you have. I know who I am in God. I know my calling and I know my identity. A body has many parts. Every part has his own function. The arm cannot do the work of the legs because it has not enough strength to carry the body. If the arm does the work of the legs the body will collapse. It is  good thing that we are different and that we have different callings. Even if the calling is the same we are different in personality. Nobody can beat you at being you.



Be contempt with who you are and what you have in God.

Hebrews 13:5 NIV

 5Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said,

“Never will I leave you;
    never will I forsake you.”

Have a great day. Be blessed.

With loving regards,


Live in Holiness..

God bless you,

Just want to tell you, and write to you that God has chosen you. He has set you apart to be pure and dedicated to Him. The bible says avoid everything that is bad, to abstain from everything that is evil. Let the very God of peace sanctify you wholly.

You know what; self search yourself and ask yourself ‘would Jesus do this’, ‘Could I do this in Jesus name’. ‘Is it appropriate to dress this way’, ‘to talk this way’ and ‘to act this way’. ‘Will my life be a testimony to others if I keep up this way’? Maybe when your thinking about it you’ll find yourself changing to way God wants you to be: Holy, Sanctify, Set apart and dedicate yourself completely to Him.

This world has a lot to offer but it is al in vain. Clothes that expose you to the world and desires of it.Talking that is bad for your mind and body. Nice cars, great house. Non of those things will say who you really are in Jesus. Go back to the core of giving fruits. Love, kindness, humility, obedient etc. A apple can be red, seems like it will taste delicious, but when you have your bite is bitter and the seed won’t give seeds for some reason. Make sure that your seeds will give fruits. It’s time to put on the breastplate of faith and love; and for an helmet, the hope of salvation.(1 Thessalonians 5:8)

What does the bible say? 1 Thessalonians 4:1-7 KJV

4 Furthermore then we beseech you, brethren, and exhort you by the Lord Jesus, that as ye have received of us how ye ought to walk and to please God, so ye would abound more and more. 2 For ye know what commandments we gave you by the Lord Jesus. 3 For this is the will of God, even your sanctification, that ye should abstain from fornication: 4 That every one of you should know how to possess his vessel in sanctification and honour; 5 Not in the lust of concupiscence, even as the Gentiles which know not God: 6 That no man go beyond and defraud his brother in any matter: because that the Lord is the avenger of all such, as we also have forewarned you and testified. 7 For God hath not called us unto uncleanness, but unto holiness.

God called us to be Holy. There is nothing more to say about it. It’s written in the Book. It is all crystal clear written down for us in the manual of life. The rest is up to you to live according to His will.

God bless you,

With loving regards,