Hey there, Gods blessings be upon you, in your house or wherever you may encounter yourself at in this moment. Today I’m going to share about the fact that we think as humans that showing our feelings is a sign of weakness and that this is a reason why we hide from them. We create bubbles to put things in , to hide stuff, to hide the feelings. Bubbles are fragile and are not meant as a place of concealment.
I’m going to zoom in just a little on Naomi a character from the book of Ruth, first chapter. Many times you go through stuff that has an impact on your life. You trust nobody to tell them that your in pain, that your suffering. You go through loss without the ability to let go and move on. Instead you build walls to keep everybody out. These walls don’t keep only people out but your blessings as well. We have the tendency to think that being vulnerable is a sign of weakness so we prefer to think that we are bulletproof made. You may have thoughts as “it is not affecting me”, when people ask how you are doing you may answer “I’m fine, blessed, I’m working it out”..(trust me I’ve been here, I’ve done this countless of time) But the truth to the matter is you are spiraling down. There is only so much you can take!
Naomi was bitter, left alone, lost hope, maybe even angry. Common reaction to these feeling is to send everybody away. This is what Naomi is going to do. (Ruth 1:8-13) So she is left behind with her two daugthers-in-law and she is deciding to move to her hometown. So she set out with them on the road that would take them back to Judah. (Ruth 1:6-7) In the text you can read that Orpah went back but as for Ruth she clung to Naomi. This is a blessing, but she to focussed on her own feelings she couldn’t see this just yet.(Ruth 1:14-18) Now when they arrived in Bethlehem, they whole town stirred at them, and exclaim can this be Naomi? Now she is confronted with her. when she left, she left with her family now she is back empty handed, no family only Ruth! She than replied don’t call me that, call me Mara because the Almighty has made my life very bitter. Now she is having the real break down she is exposed to her real feelings (Ruth 1: 20-22)
Sometimes as a great person/leader you think that you can’t show flaws or weaknesses. You think your bulletproof but this will backfire at you cause people can’t relate anymore to you cause you are so perfect. One the most powerful aspects of Jesus is that He could identify with our struggles. In order for God to turn your wailing into dancing you must trust Him enough to give it to Him. You need to be real.
The longer you are in a bubble the longer it takes to heal. Bringing down the walls you’ve created so that people can’t hurt you anymore, gives God the chance to bless you and change your circumstance. God will not force enter your life. You have to be willing to experience the change. To go through the process of healing. Healing hurts, it exposes you to all you’ve been hiding from!
You may have done something that causes you to feel shame, the feeling that you want to hide from others grow bigger, you can’t let yourself to be seen causes they will meet that the perfect pre-tendency is all a mask. It may be sin that causes you to experience that God will no longer love you. This is not true, this is a lie of the devil to keep you from developing and growing out and to receive God’s blessings for your life.
Be vulnerable enough that even after you got hurt you have the strength an courage to start over and move on. Don’t allow yourself to be stuck and to fall. Don’t be spiraling down in life but be bold enough to grow and break free from the pain. Trust the correct people whom can relate and identify with you to help you through the process.
I hope this helps you and that soon enough you can experience the warmth of Jesus Christ and realise that even when you failed you are not a failure and can be a blessing to others. You’ve been waiting for God to bless you, you are the blessing.. You a re a working progress.
Be blessed. From my heart to yours.